Can I Love 3?

With each new baby I am confused about how I can love another. I understand that I will love this little boy but I just don't understand how. My heart is so completely in love with my girls. How can there be room enough in my heart? I guess my heart will just have to grow another size and it will. It is so incredible to me how someone you never met can fill so much of you. I think about this boy all the time and even without having met

him my heart is changing.  I can not imagine life without Alice or Scarlett. Literally, the thought of their absence leaves me filling hollow. Yet, they have only been in my life a few short years. Parenthood takes you down a path of love that has no return. Once you give your heart to your child it is theirs forever. I pray everyday my children learn to understand the depth of my love and how precious they are.

"My love for my children is profound, but because we spend our days living, working, surviving we don't stop much to feel how deep we love. 

And I find it just a little unsettling, but at least I know, there is no bottom to that love. There's no threshold to hold it all in. I closed my eyes and saw my soul as an infinite series of chambers where my love continued to fall deeper and deeper in and out of rooms with doors that opened but never shut. And I wonder if this concept is the only hard proof we have that a conscious eternity does in fact exist? It is the only thing I know for sure that doesn't end. Where does all that love go if there is no eternity to fill it?

I learned this week something I knew before but never really understood: a broken heart is the very instrument we use to understand how deep we love."