What I Want

So many of my high school memories are already starting to fade. It makes me sad to think back to those years and have it feel like a dream. But there was one, very short moment I will never forget. I was on the bus going home from my last regional track meet as a senior and by some crazy fluke missed qualifying for state by only .02 of a second. The 300 meter hurdles were my baby and I had failed! Devastation took over as I thought about all the blood, sweat and tears put into training. I bawled when I realized that I had just ran my very last hurdle race after 4 years of nothing but running hurdles! My sweet teammate took that moment to tell me words I think about very often "Jill, you have great things ahead and I know you will get everything you want" In that moment all I wanted was to rerun that race and get my chance back but under all the pain I knew she was talking about so much more than running. I stayed up that night and pondered about what my life had in store for me. What would I major in? Would I get married and if so to who? What would my kids look like? Where would I live? All those questions raced through my mind and I thought about how wonderful it would be have a glimpse of my future.
     Last night we took the girls out to the park and let them run through the grass. The girls found a bouncy ball and for an hour we played fetch. We would throw it and then two little girls would run after it, squealing with delight. It was a perfect evening, one that makes you feel so blessed. What my teammate said crossed my mind and I realized that it had come true. I have everything I want!

Notice her baby curl in the back

We were driving to the park when Scarlett yelled "mom where are my shoes?" Nick got a sheepish look on his face. He put Scarlett in the car with out shoes on. It has happened before and I told Nick that forgetting shoes is like forgetting to put on pants. He must remember to put shoes on the girls! 5 seconds later I realized I forgot to put my shoes on and would be going to the park barefoot. It was one of those moments that could not have been better.