My sweet grandma passed away tonight. She was struggling with Alzheimers and I feel so much joy knowing she is free from that burden. After so many years she is together her parents, sisters and my cousin Landon. I know she is close by tonight and that knowledge brings we so much peace. I feel even more peace knowing that she past peaceful after seeing her children. She would always tell me "when I die I just want to fall asleep and never wake up". She past without pain and very quickly. Her life was a testament to her love of God, family, and zest for life!
I just can't go to bed without writing down how much I love her. She always made me feel so special, to the point where I felt she loved me best! I find myself thinking about all her wonderful dinners she had at her house, the Easter egg hunts she would through with eggs buried in the grass, and the delicious breakfast of waffles and eggs. When we stayed at her house she always catered to us and made sure we felt so loved. Those memories are dear to my heart.
When I turned 28 she called my on my birthday to say how much she loved me and wished she could spend the day with me. When I hung up the phone I just started to cry. I knew it would be the last time she remembered my birthday (it was just a few months after that she really started to show memory problems). She always sent me a card on my birthday with a sweet note and I have saved most of them. Last valentines day I had the girls make a card for her and grandpa. We mailed it to them and sure enough a couple days later I get a call from her. She wanted to call me and say how special that made her feel. It was the last time she ever called me and I feel so much happiness knowing that I made her feel loved that day. Just a few weeks ago she came into town for the weekend. As she was about to leave I hugged her tight and said "I love you grandma". I expected no reply as her memory was very far gone but sure enough she said "I love you Jill". I felt a love for her in that moment that I had not felt before. She was so strong and had endured so much and I knew she had a lived a life worthy all the blessings of celestial glory. She was such a perfect example of never ending faith and I watched her endure her trials gracefully. This quote reminds me of my grandma every time I read it as I watched her say morning and evening prayers everytime I was with her.
" There is nothing more powerful than the prayers of a righteous mother"
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